Tuesday, March 20, 2007
wow i am pissed off @ my bro...asking mi to do sumtin. he has to talk to mi like his my manager when home suppose be casual talks. well good for him, his a manager now. but dun bring home dat working attitude it pisses mi off.
i dun get why wen i suggest things my way...people has to say im talking back at dem like i got no right to even suggest my ideas? my points my views. GOD? somemore say i got attitude say i dun like to agree on his points i always must talk back,man i am onli sharing my views...i aint not agreeing. when i chose to be quiet and not talk. they would also think im offending dem. gees.
i hate being judged on my character. dun like it den dun come near mi. want mi do sumtin speak nicely. or else take my so called ATTITUDE BASTURD.
now i am so against ppl who is sucessful with there career. they all like to think there so good and lecture people up to down. its not the first time my bro talks to me like im under his staff list fark~ i dun even get paid to listen to dat stupid attitude demanding words. i totally hav different views of him now his not my fun friendly bro no more. but a cocked face arrogant up hardcore bro..wanna be.
neways im starting to hate this world this life. wish my room had a lock. no one can come in and disturb. i dun even keep my fone near mi. its on silent. i hate noise. i just wan live in my own scripted world.
i have a gf but it feels like i dont. we dont even talk everday. not even weeks. even if we do it onli last 3mins. myt aswell dump my fone aside & dun even find mi. i find u but it would onli last 3mins too cause ur alwayz busy. i dun even think im part of ur life, jez maybe @ a lil angle of ur heart..there is no solution, its fixed. with many excuses...
anyway i lost my dreams along the way. what is happiness? i only see sadness. feelings trashed ~!@#$%
*- just you and me